Another Update!

I'm now blogging from my phone and in front of the tv with my mum beside me.I wanted to blog after I came back from shopping but I'm just WAY TOO TIRED from walking in high heels for about 4 HOURS. Damn, my feet hurts but I said it myself that I WILL start wearing heels.Well, anyway forget about my heels and let's just talk about my shopping. It was a normal mother and daughters's shopping but I look like I'm in my twenties. OLDER MEN were looking AT ME. I felt weird. There was one Chinese dude LOOKING at me while I was looking at the clothes. When I look at him, He was smiling at me! I couldn't help but smile to myself because that dude is kinda hot. But HE ALREADY HAD A GIRLFRIEND!!! SUCH A PLAYBOY!! Though he is such a hottie, he's like maybe 24 yrs old!! HELLOOO!! I'M ONLY 14!! DO I REALLY LOOK LIKE TWENTY OR OLDER?!?!! GAH!! Playboy!!! Forget about him and let me  remember...DAMN!! THE PICTURE ....AND THE COMIC STRIP!!! Again, next post!! UNTIL THEN!!

Updates~!

Whoa....it's been like about 2 MONTHS since I write in here. OKAY.....I'm just blogging from my phone and I'm already dressed for shopping in 1B with my mum and my sis. Damn...I thought I'm gonna have it eaSy to figure oUt what KiNd of birthday present fOR my close friend but I'm NOT really good at choosing gifts (>^<). Anyway,just forget aboutmy bad gift-choosing skill and just think about the birthday surprise in store for our TWO BELOVED FRIENDS (who are sharing the almost birthdates!!!). CAN'T WAIT!! Heheh, you guys know who you are!!! ^.^ And I WILL NOT TELL ANY OF YOU GUYS HINTS ANYMORE!!! Those hints that I gave you is already enough, or maybe not! =P

Updates!

Hi it's me again! I don't really have anything to say other else than those reeeeaaaaallllyy personal stuff that you readers shouldn't know about. Ayway, I just came back from my school's Talentime. My friends tried my makeup on me to see how I look like for the Alice cosplay that I'm going to do. I'm going to a wedding of one of my relatives and at first, I have to wear some Kadazan costume but luckily my cousin replaced me. I'm trying to find a good tailor for the costume (which is tiring btw =^=). Urgh!!! There's soooo many things to write but I'm too lazy to write them....(lol X9). Let's just say that I have whole lots of things to do. Last but not least; MY BIRTHDAY WAS LAST WEEK!!! Happy Belated Birthday to me! ^^

P.S. I might post a comic strip in here and also a picture of myself in make up for the cosplay. So just you wait!! >-<

Because of me....

...I am living this life that I'm living right now (well I guess). My parents said that everything (well, only what they did or something like that) was because of me. "Even Rin is born because of you," my mum says. I asked her why and she said, "because you were lonely". I looked at her and I laughed. It was weird. She told me that the day before yesterday while we're talking after dinner. Maybe she's saying that parents are what they are now because of their children? Or just the fact that I have to appreciate what they have all done for me? I do appreciate it but why suddenly tell me that? I was a bit confused but these kinda stuck in my heart. For once, I realised that this is just another set of wise words from Mummy but I do remember that I was kinda lonely when I was little. I think I was about two years old when my parents decided to get another baby.

"'Let's give her a friend', that's what I said to your dad you know. We did that so that you wouldn't be lonely", my mum says again. Geez....I know that I'm not lonely anymore with a younger sister and all but sometimes it's a pain in the ass. Because Rin loves to barge into my business so does my parents. Oh well, that's my family for ya.

P.S. I know it's kinda weird reading about the second part where my mum says 'Let's give her a friend' to my dad but hey, it's my mum. Be  respectful.

P.P.S. To Taty, when in the world are you gonna get that wig?!?

I'm back!!

Waah! I'm suddenly so excited because yesterday at school my friend and I decided to do a comic. She will become the author and I will become the artist. Sometimes, I become the author if the story is not quite to my liking. WAAHHH!!! I'm so excited!!! >w< Also, if we finished one chapter, we can show it to everyone (maybe, that's a maybe). ARGH! But the thing is I'm busy with household chores and my studies that sometimes I don't have time to draw!!! No!! Well, at least I can relax a little because we have a temporary maid so I don't have to worry much...

Since my parents are now in Beijing I can use this chance to go online!! Whippee! Lawl....so excited. I've been on the computer listening to piano pieces in youtube like Tsunaida te ni Kiss wo (a japanese song, my friend introduce it to me! SOOO NICE!!!), River Flows In You and Bella's Lullaby (actually River Flows In You and Bella's Lullaby is the same. I just realised it just now XP).

Ah..gotta think of what the guys in the comic look like...one of the guys should be with glasses and another should be a little girly but NOT THAT girly.... Haiya....better draw them now la....

P.S. If you have any suggestions for how the guys or how their school uniform will look like, please comment. >.< We already decided on the girl...so sorry.

PRAY FOR JAPAN!

Please PRAY FOR JAPAN! I'm going to pray for Japan every night (>.<)

Feelings that I need to say...before I cry...

Hmm...there's not much to say. But here it is... Last week I had a big argument with my dad about my future. He said to me that manga art does not give you a 'bright' future. So what? I love art no matter what dad says. But what really hurts me is my mum. My mum said that art is lame. ART is NOT LAME. I keep telling myself that to avoid myself crying which I managed. But it still hurts...for the first time in my life she said something to me which pierced through me like a sword. And it's still there repeating over in my head.

I almost cried when she told me directly at my face. After the big argument (which also involves with my mum) I immediately went to my room after we returned home. We had the big argument in a restaurant, it wasn't embarrassing because there were too many people talking so they couln't hear us. I don't know why mum thinks art is lame. Is it because she can't draw herself? Why mum? Why did you have to say it directly at my face? I just don't get it.

I feel like I want to cry all over again. I wish she didn't say it at my face... I feel hurt all over. At school, on Monday, I managed to act all happy and fine but I'm not. I'm still hurt with mum's words pierced through me. I know she done so much for us that she doesn't want me to throw away my future just for drawing but it's just so cruel that she have to say it in my face. I know that art is just a second choice after the doctor career but it's only a second choice. I know that you think art is lame mum but to me, it isn't.