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I just woke up from a long restful sleep after coming back from the new house that we're going to move in next week and now, I'm watching K-pop while writing typing this. According to science, this is called 'multi-tasking' (heheh, I know XD). I'm quite bored after I did so many things today.

After I logged into my blog, I read a comment on one of my recent post (the one before this) and I kinda felt a bit better about the whole situation. Although, sweet_me is not really one of those people who is in the fault because...I guess, you can say she understands the situation and tries not to make it worse. So, she's in my okay list. (^^ Thanks, sweet_me for the appreciation!)

Anyway, today we're supposed to look at bicycles and stuff but because of the people who suppose to come to the new house today at 2 for the furnitures were so effing late. We waited one hour and when my mum called them, they said that they were told to come there at 5!! Since we couldn't stand waiting another minute in the (not so) dusty new house, we went back our current home.

So, officially the bicycle shopping and the real shopping is cancelled. Because of that, I can't go to Suria to buy Lonelyness a birthday gift. I'm sorry Lonelyness!!! T^T

Maybe I'm a hypocrite for saying this but..

this doesn't change the fact that I'm seriously at my tolerance limit.

I'm fed up that people doesn't appreciate my gift and not remembering to return it with at least a bit of kindness. I have enough of people's overly ungratefulness towards me and others who are giving in their best effort. I can't stand that some people are treating others as if they are rubbish. And blah blah blah etc. I have too much of these negative feelings to put in here. But one thing for sure, I have to let it out before I explode like an active volcano.

I guess you can say that my tolerance string is slowly being cut by people's treatment towards me. Mostly, the bad treatment is done by those who are around me especially the ones who are close. I tried to keep my cool but they are seriously not helping. Although I kept saying that I can stand it and that it's alright but it's not. There's a limit to my cool you know.

It's even worse when I know how the person who is being treated by them feels. I've learnt to keep my cool and 'seek first to understand, then to be understood' but sometimes I just wish they knew how to put their feet in others' shoes. It's difficult when I know that they're treating me with not the respect that I deserve but with stupid selfishness of theirs. I could be selfish saying this myself but they're being mean to me without any reason.

One of the people who trigger my bad mood today was a close friend of mine. Previously, I exploded at her for her saying that we (me and my other close friends) did not care for her and that we're backstabbing her. Yes, we may say all those 'bad' things to you but it's for your own good. I know we tease you about you-know-who but that doesn't mean we're making it so obvious. Ah! Here comes the part where you triggered my bad mood since yesterday.

YOU teased me about Cat and you're making it so freakin' OBVIOUS!!! I think Puan knows already. Not only that, some other people may already tease Cat about me liking him. I don't know whether I'm being paranoid or not but I'm pretty damn sure that you used his effing REAL name. I know you only said,"Oh not_so_lucky loves the football team, Man******" to some guys but that doesn't mean it's not obvious.

Gosh! What a load of respect you have for me and my privacy! I know you may think I'm a hypocrite for saying that but seriously, you gotta put it in your head that you and only you were making it obvious that you like you-know-who. Just watch your big mouth. It may not hurt you now but all the bad things and the secrets you may have exposed will come back to hit you in the future.

Another thing that set me off today was probably the so-called people's gratefulness towards the people who have authority. These people were mostly my classmates and Cat's too. They don't give a damn about the efforts and sacrifices that the teachers are making to help them. Here, I maybe a hypocrite for not realising it earlier but at least now I understand and tried to make it up to them.

One example is when our geography teacher typed most of my classmates' projects because theis projects are too effed up! And what did she get for her willingly sacrificed time and efforts? Only 8 of us passed?!? What kind of bullsh*t is that? If they knew and have at least a small amount of respect for her, wouldn't they all make an effort to at least pass the subject?

Even after knowing that, they still wouldn't give her the respect that she so deserves and instead sympathy (or maybe none at all). Even if they have any sympathy they wouldn't even push themselves to repay her, only say "That's so sad". WE DO NOT NEED YOUR SYMPATHY, WE JUST NEED YOUR RESPECT.

*sigh* I think I'm alright now. Kinda. But I just wish they could understand what misery I'm feeling right now. These things that I've just posted are just a small part of my feelings. It's not going to last forever but it sure is ugly. Since I already let it out, I'm going to be in an okay mood later. But that doesn't mean you have to treat me so bad, I just need a little break from wearing myself out with tolerating with selfish people.