Tomorrow...

...is gonna be the last day of school. I can't believe how fast the time pass. It's been two years since the primary six graduation night. The song is somewhat still stuck in my head. And now I feel like I'm going to graduate again soon. My mum suggested this morning to change my school next year. When I hear those words, my mind and body (well, not literally) stopped working.

My mum suddenly suggested this idea when her friend, the one who came to our school for the presentation last week, told her she's not gonna send her daughter to my school. She thought the girls who were in the presentation were rude--except for the front row. 'Some of them were sleeping and some were sitting inappropiately', my mum's friend said. 'Even the teachers are not doing their job well'.

And that's where my mum decided to talk to me about transferring schools. The first thought came to mind was my friends and the PMR next year. My friends...I'm not really sure about my friends what they will think about this. I mean, two of them are going overseas in form 4 and another one is going to home school next year. And the last one is probably staying until form 5, I think. You guys know who you are.

But, I already told them that I'm gonna stay until form 5 and out of the blue, my mum suggested the idea of transferring me to another school. She said that I should transfer next year and my mind was like, ''WHAT ABOUT PMR??? I will be using half of the year to adapt to All Saints and the other to study my ass off for the PMR!!!''. My mum, who sometimes can hear my mind shout, said that the PMR is easy. And I was giving her the are-you-kidding-me-you're-a-genius-if-you-say-it's-easy-but-I'm-not-unfortunately face.

WHAT THE HELL AM I GONNA DO??!?!?! Next year, the discpline teacher already confirmed as a prefect next year and what am I gonna say to Chan, who's staying until form 5?!?!? She will be mad. I'm pretty sure of it. T^T God, help me...at least my mum's only suggesting...I hope.

Updates =,=

Ok....Just to remind y'all again; my phone has been taken away by my parents so I can only be available to my phone at 4-5 pm and 6-7 pm. So, you guys can call me or sms me around that time only. Moving on with my updates; I just finished writing my entry for Taty's second competition so check it out! You guys can tell me what you think on my blog 'cuz that post is strictly for  the entries only. I commnted a question about the competition and then I found myself staring at the box which said, 'This post has been removed by a blog administrator' (=.=). Same thing happened to Niko too. XP

Anyway, I got my wig already but the problem is the bangs is TOO LONG. Can we pleeeeaaaase cut it shorter, Taty??? The bangs is until my lips you know! I will not put the picture here but I will send it to you on facebook tomorow ok? It's kinda embarassing so I am definitely NOT gonna put the picture yet. I said yet ok? Not never.

Oh yeah! I almost forgot. For those who is playing Gaia and want your profile to look nice or anything you want it to look like, go and check this out. FYI, I am not in charge of this site so don't come to me making a request for profiles ok?? I'm telling you that I'm bad at making  profiles!! Xd

P.S. Can you guys tell me which site is good for an amateur artist like me can earn money?? 'Cuz my dad is NOT gonna give me allowances for a long time and I NEED money. So just comment on this post if you guys can find any ok??? Thank you >.<''

Urgh..exam is coming in less than two weeks. Wish I have more time to study. Also, I have to think about my friends' birthday!! The exams has a really bad timing cuz my friends' birthday is like in the middle of the exam. I already discussed with my parents and they said they don't have the time to send me to their birthday so I only can go AFTER the exam T^T. Well, at least it's going to be the last for this year.

I'm also nervous for tomorrow cuz during the assembly, they're going to announce the winners of the debate. Oh yeah, I didn't post it last time. I joined the debate that was held last Wednesday and Friday at school with Taty, Denise and Chan Yng. We managed to get into the finals which was on Friday and it was nerve-wrecking when we have to compete against the form 5!! They were soooo good O.O''. They deserve to win, to me anyway. Others think we have an equal chance though.

Anyway, I also have to think about my life and love status. I'm not sure whether you can say that my life is perfectly hectic but it's also...satisfying you know what I mean?  I mean...I did things that I kinda regret later on and I also did things that make me feel...happy (is that even the right word?). I'm not sure though. My love status...urm...lemme see...my friend who keeps telling me not to talk to a dude says that he's NOT worth it but my other friends say that he's good for me and I should give him a chance. I talked to him and I kinda like him (>///<) and he like me a LOT (I can tell). So, I kinda gave him a chance.

Well, what am I gonna do?? I know that I like him but there is SOMEONE who thinks he's not worth my time and blah, blah, blah. I DON'T CARE!! Get lost girl!! I know maybe you have bad experience with love--or maybe none at all--but don't put that in my face cuz you don't choose whether he's really worth my time or not. I'm the one who should choose!! I can't believe that I followed and believed what you said.

Thanks to Taty, I finally got my senses back! I just don't get why you don't want me to talk with him. You too, should try to give him a chance. He's not as bad as what you think. Anyway, we're not really official since he's still thinking about it. He was kinda shocked and happy you know. *sigh* love is SO COMPLICATED sometimes. Nevermind, when that time comes, I'm gonna bitch-slap the those who gets in my way =^=.  

The Make-up!! (Sorry the pics not so good ^^ll)

Sorry it's been SOOOO long! My mum took the camera around with her to work so it's kinda a pain in the ass. Now, finally the make-up!! ^.^ll sorry it's not really high-quality picture though...

Now, you know how the face make-up looks like, let's move on to from piece by piece.  Let's look at the lipstick now.



Ok...like I said; NATURAL. The lipstick shouldn't be so dark just find something that is more light.



This is the most suitable color that I find to match with the rest of the make-up. It shouldn't be difficult to get this color though ^u^

Now it's the eyes !! ^.^

As you can see, I did not put any eye-liner here cuz that will just ruin the sweet, natural look (=.=). So, I only empahsize a bit on the eye lash.

Since the I said it should be a natural look, I used a small one and only give my eyelashes a slight curl.



BACK TO THE BASICS!! >.<

Gosh... I still remember what Chan Yng said if I don't take care of my face (O.O). Anyway, this is just the concealer that my mum (and me) usually wear. It shouldn't be too much and it's just to even the skin colour ok?  

This is just the base make-up. This is also help even the skin colour.

 


Look at the red for the bluser. Use the lighter one ok??



     Well, that's about it. Since the make-up is for Alice and not me, I'm not sure whether the make-up will look good with the wig and stuff like that though. Anyway, the whole point for this make-up is to look natural and balanced (if can, more Japanese style). For the eyes, we can put fake eyelash but not so extravagance if you know what I'm talking about. Okies! I'm done now! Tell me what you think ok?? >w<

I can handle criticsm so criticise all you want!  







Another Update!

I'm now blogging from my phone and in front of the tv with my mum beside me.I wanted to blog after I came back from shopping but I'm just WAY TOO TIRED from walking in high heels for about 4 HOURS. Damn, my feet hurts but I said it myself that I WILL start wearing heels.Well, anyway forget about my heels and let's just talk about my shopping. It was a normal mother and daughters's shopping but I look like I'm in my twenties. OLDER MEN were looking AT ME. I felt weird. There was one Chinese dude LOOKING at me while I was looking at the clothes. When I look at him, He was smiling at me! I couldn't help but smile to myself because that dude is kinda hot. But HE ALREADY HAD A GIRLFRIEND!!! SUCH A PLAYBOY!! Though he is such a hottie, he's like maybe 24 yrs old!! HELLOOO!! I'M ONLY 14!! DO I REALLY LOOK LIKE TWENTY OR OLDER?!?!! GAH!! Playboy!!! Forget about him and let me  remember...DAMN!! THE PICTURE ....AND THE COMIC STRIP!!! Again, next post!! UNTIL THEN!!

Updates~!

Whoa....it's been like about 2 MONTHS since I write in here. OKAY.....I'm just blogging from my phone and I'm already dressed for shopping in 1B with my mum and my sis. Damn...I thought I'm gonna have it eaSy to figure oUt what KiNd of birthday present fOR my close friend but I'm NOT really good at choosing gifts (>^<). Anyway,just forget aboutmy bad gift-choosing skill and just think about the birthday surprise in store for our TWO BELOVED FRIENDS (who are sharing the almost birthdates!!!). CAN'T WAIT!! Heheh, you guys know who you are!!! ^.^ And I WILL NOT TELL ANY OF YOU GUYS HINTS ANYMORE!!! Those hints that I gave you is already enough, or maybe not! =P

Updates!

Hi it's me again! I don't really have anything to say other else than those reeeeaaaaallllyy personal stuff that you readers shouldn't know about. Ayway, I just came back from my school's Talentime. My friends tried my makeup on me to see how I look like for the Alice cosplay that I'm going to do. I'm going to a wedding of one of my relatives and at first, I have to wear some Kadazan costume but luckily my cousin replaced me. I'm trying to find a good tailor for the costume (which is tiring btw =^=). Urgh!!! There's soooo many things to write but I'm too lazy to write them....(lol X9). Let's just say that I have whole lots of things to do. Last but not least; MY BIRTHDAY WAS LAST WEEK!!! Happy Belated Birthday to me! ^^

P.S. I might post a comic strip in here and also a picture of myself in make up for the cosplay. So just you wait!! >-<

Because of me....

...I am living this life that I'm living right now (well I guess). My parents said that everything (well, only what they did or something like that) was because of me. "Even Rin is born because of you," my mum says. I asked her why and she said, "because you were lonely". I looked at her and I laughed. It was weird. She told me that the day before yesterday while we're talking after dinner. Maybe she's saying that parents are what they are now because of their children? Or just the fact that I have to appreciate what they have all done for me? I do appreciate it but why suddenly tell me that? I was a bit confused but these kinda stuck in my heart. For once, I realised that this is just another set of wise words from Mummy but I do remember that I was kinda lonely when I was little. I think I was about two years old when my parents decided to get another baby.

"'Let's give her a friend', that's what I said to your dad you know. We did that so that you wouldn't be lonely", my mum says again. Geez....I know that I'm not lonely anymore with a younger sister and all but sometimes it's a pain in the ass. Because Rin loves to barge into my business so does my parents. Oh well, that's my family for ya.

P.S. I know it's kinda weird reading about the second part where my mum says 'Let's give her a friend' to my dad but hey, it's my mum. Be  respectful.

P.P.S. To Taty, when in the world are you gonna get that wig?!?

I'm back!!

Waah! I'm suddenly so excited because yesterday at school my friend and I decided to do a comic. She will become the author and I will become the artist. Sometimes, I become the author if the story is not quite to my liking. WAAHHH!!! I'm so excited!!! >w< Also, if we finished one chapter, we can show it to everyone (maybe, that's a maybe). ARGH! But the thing is I'm busy with household chores and my studies that sometimes I don't have time to draw!!! No!! Well, at least I can relax a little because we have a temporary maid so I don't have to worry much...

Since my parents are now in Beijing I can use this chance to go online!! Whippee! Lawl....so excited. I've been on the computer listening to piano pieces in youtube like Tsunaida te ni Kiss wo (a japanese song, my friend introduce it to me! SOOO NICE!!!), River Flows In You and Bella's Lullaby (actually River Flows In You and Bella's Lullaby is the same. I just realised it just now XP).

Ah..gotta think of what the guys in the comic look like...one of the guys should be with glasses and another should be a little girly but NOT THAT girly.... Haiya....better draw them now la....

P.S. If you have any suggestions for how the guys or how their school uniform will look like, please comment. >.< We already decided on the girl...so sorry.

PRAY FOR JAPAN!

Please PRAY FOR JAPAN! I'm going to pray for Japan every night (>.<)

Feelings that I need to say...before I cry...

Hmm...there's not much to say. But here it is... Last week I had a big argument with my dad about my future. He said to me that manga art does not give you a 'bright' future. So what? I love art no matter what dad says. But what really hurts me is my mum. My mum said that art is lame. ART is NOT LAME. I keep telling myself that to avoid myself crying which I managed. But it still hurts...for the first time in my life she said something to me which pierced through me like a sword. And it's still there repeating over in my head.

I almost cried when she told me directly at my face. After the big argument (which also involves with my mum) I immediately went to my room after we returned home. We had the big argument in a restaurant, it wasn't embarrassing because there were too many people talking so they couln't hear us. I don't know why mum thinks art is lame. Is it because she can't draw herself? Why mum? Why did you have to say it directly at my face? I just don't get it.

I feel like I want to cry all over again. I wish she didn't say it at my face... I feel hurt all over. At school, on Monday, I managed to act all happy and fine but I'm not. I'm still hurt with mum's words pierced through me. I know she done so much for us that she doesn't want me to throw away my future just for drawing but it's just so cruel that she have to say it in my face. I know that art is just a second choice after the doctor career but it's only a second choice. I know that you think art is lame mum but to me, it isn't.

Cosplay (message to Taty)

HI Taty! This is just a message to you and only for YOU. I just want your opinion on this cosplay. Whaddya think?

If you don't think that's nice or doesn't suit me, what about this?

and it's matched with this (I was thinking of a big ribbon but can't find a good picture of it);

Just words...

I felt awkward at Popo's house. Well, to be exact, I felt weird when I was with my cousins. I know I got my friend and also my aunt (she's 18 this year) to start up a conversation but somehow I still feel awkward. This is not the first time though. Every time when we visit Popo's house or each other's house for special occasions, I felt REALLY awkward. We weren't like that when we were much younger. I thought, Oh maybe it's because they're just boys...it's ok I'll start talking to them like we used to. But no, it's been like that ever since we started growing up (well you know the puberty thing).

We were so different from the way we used to be. I just wish that we could be young forever and we can talk to each other like we used to. We had so much fun together with Nadine (the 18 year old aunt). Why did we change? Why did we stop talking to each other? Well kinda. We still talk but only a few words. But that's not enough is it? If you guys are reading this, I hope that we can talk to each other like we used to. We got another chance you know. On Saturday (which is tomorrow) we're going to Kompleks Sukan Adunan in Yayasan Sabah to play badminton. Hope you guys come! Love you Darren and Derrich!

Happy Chap Goh Meh!

Chap Goh Meh is here! WOOHOO! To those of you don't know, Chap Goh Meh is a the end of celebration of Chinese New Year. My dad told me (last night during dinner ^^lll) that 'Chap' means 10 and 'Goh' means 5 in Hokkien. If you combine them, it will be 15. 'Meh' is urm...I forgot....^^lll. Sorry. Next time I will remember what it means.

Anyway, today we are celebrating at Popo's (Popo means Grandma in Chinese, just to let you know) house. Even though she's 70 something, she's very healthy for her age. She doesn't take any medicine to keep her health up, nothing. My dad said that she ate lots of nutrients food. For me, I LOVE her food. Her food really gives you energy you know. She can cook different varieties of food like Indian, Kadazan and her specialty of course is Chinese food. Yum! Delicious! X9

I can't wait to go to her house tonight! But last time when I went for the chinese New Year celebration, I got a stomachache. It was because she served us 'honeydew' fruits. When I ate it, I got a stomachache. I don't know why but both of my cousins were alright after eating the fruits. Maybe it's because that they already gotten used to the fruits that she served them. I forgotten that when Popo's fruits were in (always) in a bad condition. Sorry Popo.

I just have to remember that I must not eat whatever fruits that Popo serves. Sorry again Popo =_=lll

HAPPY CHAP GOH MEH!!!!

A quick update!

Sorry, I haven't been online for a while but I'm still busy with stuff so I better make this short. Today at school we have been vaccinated to prevent cervix cancer or something like that. Because of that, my arm hurts when it moves. Urm....tomorrow's the Chinese New Year celebration at school but I can't attend cuz of some reason. Next week is Valentine's Day and I still don't have a date. Well who cares? It's fun to be SINGLE! Other else than that, I'm searching online now for some stupid project at school. Well, I better go now. Told you it's a quick update. ;)

Oh Crap!

No!!! The Sports Day is tomorrow!!! Because of the sports day, my feet are sore from the marching. Urgh! Not only that; I'm also running for 200m!! That's almost half a stadium! And who knows who I'm competing with? I don't know what's worse but our marching commander just told us that we're going to have our marching uniform TOMORROW! Tomorrow is the sports day dammit! I would prefer Nazmir than (urr..what's his name?) Regean to become the commander even though Nazmir is WAY more fierce than Regean. Well, at least I'm not the only girl in the marching team. Anyway, I just jope that we, Red House, can win (even though we suck at marching). Last year we won you know. Ahh...the glory days...I was freaking happy when I heard that Red House won. Now, I'm not sure whether we can win again this year. I (especially the House Captain =_=lll) would be crushed if we do. I REALLY hate that.

The Blue and Yellow House's marching was awesome (0.0'') and we suck (T^T) and Blue House even get more gold than us Red House! How the hell did they do that?!? Probably, someone from Blue broke the high-jump record.

AHHH!!! What the hell?!?! I gotta be positive!!! Not negative!! Red House is going to win! Even if we don't, there will always be next year. I hope. Oh God, help us win!