Letting my anger out.....

This is just a normal morning in my life! My lil' sis just can't stand whenever someone tries to advises her to do something or teach her something (except for her teachers and my parents). It's so annoying! She woke up late (again) and she ate her breakfast slowly while she was talking with our maid!!! It's just SOOO ANNOYING!!! The worst part is she stayed there for so long until like 11am. When I ask her to go up to her room (and mine, we shared a room) to take a shower, she just said that I'm like I'm some kind of a b***h (well, maybe it's true because I kinda always boss her around but it's for her own good!).

Grrrr....she's just as well learn her manners. I know that we're only 3 years apart but that doesn't mean you have to be disrespectful towards someone older than you!!! Gosh!! I felt like I've been struck on the head! My sis and I are like opposites but we're also friends. But there are times when we argue and I just can't stand the arguments!! She's veeeeeeeeeeery sensitive when it comes to criticism. Urgh! I've gotta go! Bye

There's always a but...

FREEDOM!!!!! Yes!!! Today's the last day of school but (I hate buts) there's the revision that my mum and dad wants me (and my sis) to do. NOT FAIR!!! It's like a prison designed to torture me and Rin. Even worse, they don't let us go online. DOUBLE UNFAIR!!! But shhh..don't tell them I went online today. I wanted to write in here before I go to 'prison'.

I won't be going online...let's say say... for a few weeks or maybe more than that (I hate this T^T) because (yeah yeah) the 'prison' and the vacation trip to China (at least I can go! >w<). That's the least of my worries. The worst might come sooner or later. I'm afraid that Mum and Dad are going to buy new books for us to finish (I hope it's not true!!!).

Grr...I'm so tired of being treated like this. Even though, (here I go) my parents asked my sis to do the revision too, they would treat my sis as a unique girl (I don't want to say 'special' because at my school we called the mental kids 'special'). They would let her go online or play games or even lets her hangs out with her friends without hesitation. What about me? I did so much revising than her and still it's the same. I have to beg to my parents to let me hang out with my friends in the mall or going to my friends' parties.

I know that my parents love me but I know that they love her too. Grrr... my sis is asking to stop now

China!! and Freedom!!!

"FREEDOM!!!!" I said as I ran out of school towards my dad's car. 'No more boring class...no more talking-parrot-teachers...most importantly NO MORE SCHOOL!!!!' I mean of course we have still class *groan* but we don't have to study!! I'm just freakin' happy!!! NO MORE EXAM!!!

WOOHOOO!!! Let's sing!!! Lawl! Just joking! I'm still happy though because this year my family and I are going to China for a vacation! To my (RICH) friend, she thinks going to China is boring (SO NOT TRUE!!!), she thinks going to Europe or America is WAY much more fun. Yeah yeah whatever! I still like China and that's where my grandma was born ok?!?!? I love it there!

It got the culture and cool places that we don't have here in Malaysia. The last time I went to China I never felt so happy..excited and...um... free! Probably it's because that's my origins (I dunno...maybe that? ^^lll). Also, I feel there's something amazing going to happen to me... I wonder what is it?

EXAM!!!

NO!!!! Damn you exam!!!! Because of you I have to fuss over the textbooks!!! The f***ing teachers are so annoying they gave me the freakin' exercises for you!!!! I f***ing hate you Exam!!!! 

This is what I thought and damn... even though sometimes people call me a nerd, I really do hate study. I hate those freakin' revision that the teachers at school gave me. It wasn't possible for me to like them 'cause it's just like doing the f***ing study all over again from the beginning until the end. Exams can really get on my nerves which means I can be a little sweary when it comes to exams (just f***ing ignore the swear words).

Well, that's just what I thought of exam. Since there's f***ing exam next week. I won't write here for a while maybe more than a week. I just felt worse when my sis always try to lecture me. HELLO SIS!!!! You're not my mother!!!!

Urgh... Exams really do make me more sweary and just get used to it.

Fainted O.o

Yes, I fainted at school last Monday. Don't be surprised. I'm still alive and this is not my ghost typing n the computer here!! It was really surprising when I fainted. I NEVER fainted in my life before. My mum (she's a doctor) says that I haven't been eating well for the past few months and now that I've got a cold, which made it worse and then suddenly I fainted. Well, at least that's what she says, I can't go online like I want because she says it will give me headaches (Don't tell my mum!!>.<).

Now, I feel MUCH better so tomorrow I might go to school and I wonder what will my friends say about this though. AH! Who cares right? At least I'm still here (and not floating around above other people's heads...>.<'''). But I still cough a lot and so if any of you guys reading this gets infected, don't blame me ok?!?!




LOOK AT ME!!! Even though I'm sick but I still look cool!! Lawl! I just put this randomly...^^. Maybe I should put this as my profile pic

My cosplay costume...for NEXT YEAR!!!

Hi again! Forgot that there's gonna be cosplay next year and so I feel like I want to put the costume here. If you wanna check it out click here . This costume belongs to the Caramel Cream cosplay group, but it haven't been designed yet because of the low funds. So, if you would be so kind to donate, please donate! We would appreciate it so much! If you're interested to join, please ask the secretary of the group (which is ME! >_<""). Please follow and comment on the group's blog! CLICK if you want to see the group's blog.
The blog is really simple but please do not comment bad things about it or the leader of the group will get angry (>_<"").

Damn I hate stress..

I mean who wouldn't? Everybody hates stress includng me. Now I feel more stress because I'm doing TWO freakin' projects at the same time!! What's worse is that the final year exam is coming and I'm so freakin' angry!!! WTH??! I can say that this is one of the most tiring months that I have to go through this year.

Also, my dad's work is piling up more often than it usually does and the staff workers are really annoying him!! He keeps complaining about them to my mum but I can feel the pressure too when I heard them talking about it. It's not fair...

But life isn't always fair. I realised it since from the beginning. That means we gotta hardened ourselves...which is not easy to do. I tried to hardened myself but many times I failed. That was what giving me more stress. But, with the help of my friends and family, it will ALWAYS turn out great at the end.

Ahhh... I feel better now... It wasn't easy to express feelings you know.. but I shouldn't keep quiet or else I will suddenly explode like last time (T-T). Oh yeah one thing that's also bothering my mind; who is the guy that my close friend like??? :P Gotcha!

But seriously she was giving me clues but I can't figure it out!!! I will figure it out someday!!!! >.< Hehehe...

Ugh...

Ugh...I'm kinda annoyed because my friend told me something really that which is totally unexpected. My friend's friend wrote something about me in his blog and he even put a picture of me (which is TOTALLY embarassing!!!) and lots of people from his school commented it and saying; "Wow! she's hot!" but that's not the point here. The thing is there's a guy (STALKER!!!!) asked my friend to give him my facebook name!!! Thank God she didn't!!

Not only that he wants me to become his prom date?!?!! He doesn't even know me and he suddenly wants me to become his prom date!!!! IN YOUr DREAMS!! WTH dude? There's a tons of other girls wants to become your prom date!!!!

After that, he added my friend in Facebook and he keep asking her for my Facebook name! DUDE!!! Get the hell away from my friends!! Anyone who's reading this, do not tell him my facebook name or anything about me if you meet him.

This is just what I felt (kinda)...

Wassup? The things that I wrote below is kinda intense but this is how I felt. There were lotsa things that happened to my family but I won't tell you about it. So, go on read it if you want to you little blog stalker!!!

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I just realised that this is such a strange world. How? People in this world knows which is bad and good but they still doing the bad things like taking drugs, ran away, divorces and all sort of things. Why? Because they can't stand the pressure. There was also so many things that once happened to me which still hurts.

I learned this from my close friend(maybe WAY closer than I thought) that we all should be strong to face the world. We cried, laughed, and have done something really bad even though we didn't mean it. But we all must be strong and face the hardships. Life gave us hardships which we sometimes cannot endure to make us strong.

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To Axell Candaile who commented my previous blog post; yes, I am searching for an interesting topic (other else than those 'cakes' you mentioned). Anyway, thanks for the comment! I will try to improve!!

My friend's AWESOME story!!!!

Hi people! I just finished reading all of my friend's blog posts and it was soooo awesome!! She got a new story which is romantic (and kinda familiar, well for me). If anyone of you wants to read her story well click this --->>http://mymindequalsmyworld.blogspot.com/

Holidays is almost over...luckily I just finished my homework. Now all I need to do now is print it. So, I need to use the computer now. Bye bye!

HAPPY HOLS!!

HAPPY HOLS to anyone who is readig this post. It's great to have the holidays again! Don't u think so?? I felt kinda disappointed when I didn't have the courage to talk to a guy that I like before the holidays but yet again I think I shouldn't have a relationship yet, not at my age. (HELLO!!! I'm only 13!!!!) I'm kinda sensitive so I don't wanna date yet, not just yet. Anyways, I just read my friend's blog about some lovey-dovey thing and it's so sweeeeet!! The next post I'm going to put the link.

Oh yeah I just remembered something at school before I went back home. I was being random that time so here's the conversation between me and her;

Me: Hey, Friend. Would you marry my dog?
Friend: Yeah sure.
Me: Oh really? Which one do you want? The very cute one which is my lovely white pomeranian or....
Friend: I want the very cute one
Me: What? Really? Then.. you're a DOG lesbian then.


HAHAHA!!! Lawl!! I know this is freakin' weird but my friend is not gonna marry my dog if you're wondering (that's just gross). I've got to go now before my dad found out that I was on the computer. Bye!

NO SCHOOL!!!

YES!!! Thank you GOD! Today there's no school so I post this. I woke up kinda late than usual and the first thing I do was switch on the laptop and here I am!! Wow...never realize that I could be like this like 1) I'm going to slack around the whole day and; 2) going online for a looooooonnngg time. LAwl! But I might get grounded if I do like that. My parents are sooooo annoying but hey, this what my parents do to make me work ;)

Love problem... (kinda)

HI! I'm here becaus I'm kinda messed up right now. I like a guy and Watermelon (that's what I will be naming one of m close friends in this blog because I don't want to name names) suggested that I write a letter about my feelings for him and pass it to him!!! NO!!! But I don't want to but I know deep (REALLY DEEP) in my heart, I wanted to. It's just that I'm afraid what he will say so... that's why I don't want to give him the letter yet. Btw, I think I should become friends with him first before I confess to him...

C...O...S...P...L....A....Y...

Yo! It's been a long time I haven't post in here. Anyway, today was kinda boring so ther's not much to talk about. But, there's one thing that I think I have to write in here but that would ruin his reputation. So I'm not going to write about that. I'm kinda sad that I can't cosplay this year with my friends but at least I can come and see my friends cosplay. It wasn't that easy because the costume costs like about RM500?!?! The cosplay manager must have count the imported stuffs. But I don't care as long as I get involved with cosplay somehow. Damn....my mum's spying... It's night-time so that means I have to go now... BYE!!! ANIME COSPLAY ROCKS!!!!

Yesterday, I cried. Today, I got into trouble because I didn't wait for my dad. A lot of things are happening now. Like for example, I joined a cosplay group called Caramel Cream that my friend made. The group is awesome! I just saw the costumes. It's awesome. But, it's only for next year. Also, I already joined another group with my friend. And in a few months, I'm going to cosplay in City Mall with my fellow group members. But now, AAAAH!!!! I've got to study for the piano theory exam which is in SEPTEMBER!!! I hate exams!!

Bored...

I'm soooo FREAKIN' BORED!!!!! Today I have to practise the same song for 2 HOURS (to those who don't know; I play the piano, but only grade 2 though) !!! Damn! I also forgotten about the drama practise today!!!! I don't even remember what time is the practise! Also, I have to finish the work that my mum gave me (which is like LOADS). Damn! I'm SOOOOO not lucky today! If I knew this is going to happen, I would only wish to dream all day.

On the bright side, I'm still waiting for my birthday. My dad said that he's gonna make a feast (at least I think so). Also, I might even go to Sandakan when the school re-opens!! Whoohoo!!!! CAN'T WAIT!!! :D

Holidays!!! :D

YeS!!!! Holidays are here!!!!! I have so much things I wanna do; the movies, hanging out with my friends (not so much) and lotsa of things! Oh yeah, next week will be my BIRTHDAY too! My dad promised me something huge, so I couldn't wait!! But, I told him that he didn't really make it huge. ^^"" Well, I just have to wait and see for myself.