Love problem... (kinda)

HI! I'm here becaus I'm kinda messed up right now. I like a guy and Watermelon (that's what I will be naming one of m close friends in this blog because I don't want to name names) suggested that I write a letter about my feelings for him and pass it to him!!! NO!!! But I don't want to but I know deep (REALLY DEEP) in my heart, I wanted to. It's just that I'm afraid what he will say so... that's why I don't want to give him the letter yet. Btw, I think I should become friends with him first before I confess to him...